7-6-09

It was a very important day for me and Brandon.
July 6th, 2009 marked the 2 years and 8 months that Brandon and I have been together(:

We went on a picnic for the first time, ever!
He even promised me we would go.=D
We went to Wendy's... [taha] then went to the lake, put down a purple blanket and laid together and ate our sandwiches and fries until we were both done(: We went down to the lake and found a turtle. He was a soft-shell and Brandon and I both decided to keep it and call it ours.
We put him in a Wendy's cup that Brandon used for his drink and watched him swim. We sat there for a little while and watched the clouds roll by and finally looked up and our turtle and thought of a name for him... Piggy was the first thing that came to mind because that's what he looked like, the cutest pig-turtle I've ever seen!
Brandon took our turtle home and is taking care of him as we speak(:

That was our anniversary(:
It was so much fun.


Later on, he calls me and tells me he got his job for the Marines... his job is the infantry.
He leaves for boot camp some time in June next year and stays until some time in September. He graduates from there and has a 2 week leave, he told me he's going to do something very very special then, and then he goes to Infantry School for about 2 weeks or so. Then, he is either stationed or goes right over seas, and if he does go straight over seas, then what he did in September that was really special will come true(:

I'm scared as hell for him to leave me. I think it will be good for me to be at Baker though. I will be close to home and close to his family and my family. I could get a job and keep my mind off of him either being alive or... yea, you know. I think it will help me because I can focus on school work and when he comes back, we can live together(:
I will be... atleast 21 by the time I graduate. I can live with him and start a family and see him everyday(:
It's exciting.
I can't wait to grow up(:

You don't know WHAT I go through...

People talk all the time about their friends going into the armed forces, and how their going to go through withdraws. I talk about Brandon [my boy] going into the Marines and him leaving. People are like, oh yea, I know how you feel!
I'm Pretty sure you don't. No one knows what I am going to go through or what I am going through now.
Brandon has been going to camps in Lansing just to sign up for it and go to a few things, just to go through camps and stuff.
People don't know what I've been thinking or going through.
What if something happens to Brandon? I want to marry this kid, and have kids with him. I want to grow old with him and be by his side for the rest of our lives.
I love this kid so much, no one will ever understand how much I love him, not even him.
I know God will take care of him, and keep him safe while he's over there.
But what really bothers me, is when people act like they know what I'm talking about, what I feel...
I was telling my friend the other day about it, and her other friend was laughing behind me in the seat, it drives me nuts!

I just thought I would share=D