Hoolla!

What is up my non-blog readers? Haha.
Summer is so boring so far.
I really miss everything.
I went to a party last night;
There was alcohol everywhere.
Someone puked and they were playing beer pong.
It was really awkward because I wasn't drinking.
Either was Brandon but we were the only ones who weren't.
I wish...
We could go back go the days when alcohol didn't interfere with out lives. People don't understand.
I really miss those days.
When we just got together to socialize. Not to get drunk and not remember a darn thing that happened that night..

Anyways,
I really miss my Fabulous Four this year.



Those are my fabulous four<3
I can't wait for next year now.
Aww, I miss you girls=(

You don't know WHAT I go through...

People talk all the time about their friends going into the armed forces, and how their going to go through withdraws. I talk about Brandon [my boy] going into the Marines and him leaving. People are like, oh yea, I know how you feel!
I'm Pretty sure you don't. No one knows what I am going to go through or what I am going through now.
Brandon has been going to camps in Lansing just to sign up for it and go to a few things, just to go through camps and stuff.
People don't know what I've been thinking or going through.
What if something happens to Brandon? I want to marry this kid, and have kids with him. I want to grow old with him and be by his side for the rest of our lives.
I love this kid so much, no one will ever understand how much I love him, not even him.
I know God will take care of him, and keep him safe while he's over there.
But what really bothers me, is when people act like they know what I'm talking about, what I feel...
I was telling my friend the other day about it, and her other friend was laughing behind me in the seat, it drives me nuts!

I just thought I would share=D